My vanity is helping my stress levels
I don’t think I’ve ever been so busy in my life.
Like, I’ve been busy. Doing..stuff..
But I don’t think I’ve ever been this mentally busy.
My busy life before has been- trying to be out with friends while in school. Even when I was a nurse already and held two bartending jobs, a nurse job, partied like crazy and as always taking the best are of my son, Chewie.
Then, I really don’t think I ever felt as busy as I do now. Kinda little big time stressing me out.
So my vanity is really helping me control the amount of stress that tries to consume me on the daily.
Right now, I have a full time nursing job and I am a lot more responsible than I used to be, in work and in school.
I am in school full time for Biology, Stem path, meaning the most complicated math ever.
I also strive to get straight A’s every semester.
Anyway, last semester my face broke out in a volcanic eruption of islands (pimples). I spent a lot of money trying to eliminate this volcanic eruption on my face.
Since I was a teenager, the biggest contributor of acne on my face (and admittedly my back too) has been stress.
I usually don’t realize it until I am in a fury of anxiety emotions and turn out looking like a 13 year old puberty ravaged boy.
But this time my vanity has really helped me in calming my stress.
Any time I feel crazy, I breathe. No joke.
Whenever I feel that overwhelming- all consuming anxiety feeling, I just start breathing and count my gratitude. Because of course I am grateful. But my reminder is just so that I wont get any pimples!
As vain as that sounds, it has been working.
Not 100% because the stress is still there. But my break outs are much less than they would be if I didn’t do this.
Math and science majors 4.0 GPA should really be a 5.0 on the scale. I’m just saying. This shit is hard.
I really can’t imagine what working mom’s or student mom’s feel like. Or women that are both! Oh boy.